In chaos find freedom

“Self-care isn’t selfish; it’s self-esteem.

“Today, God, help me love myself. Help me let go of feeling excessively responsible for those around me. Show me what I need to do to take care of myself and be appropriately responsible to others.”

Melody Beattie

“You don’t have to be grateful and joyous in every moment, but this freedom of dropping ideal and narrative, and being at peace … it’s always available. Even in moments of chaos, you can be free, and even appreciate the beauty of the chaos.”

Leo Babauta

This is a succulent a friend randomly gifted me a few months ago. I was saying goodbye to her before she moved away. I love how it is growing.

Recently a friend borrowed my car and she forgot to pick me up from my errand. This allowed me to have a wonderful walk through a neighborhood to get to my next errand. I didn’t have to call a Lyft or Uber. Thankfully I was close enough to my lunch date to walk from where I was, and take life as it happened.

Being single, being in the moment (or trying to)… with a pile of ebooks, real books, podcasts- my brain is so happy. I don’t always have a lot of time to read. It’s been hard getting back to it. 99% of what I read or listen to is self-help or recovery related. But I did discover a funny podcast recently. Haha I love the hilarious as hell ramblings those guys go on- only on my first episode of them too!

I so enjoy taking myself out to lunch, brunch, breakfast. After my paydays, I find a place I have always wanted to try or revisit. I think some people in my town get so caught in their grooves. I mean like the grooves on a record. I’m trying to stutter on purpose. Deprogram. Find a new pattern. Be random.

Sometimes a sunrise in a puddle after a rain is better than a rainbow.


There. I finally made a post that wasn’t drenched in the shit of my life. It’s not all bad. Let go- detach- be aware of the attachment- self-care… Good night faithful readers.

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